MIA

Yep, that about sums things up lately. Me= MIA.

The last month has mostly been a blur. To much to do, to much to keep track of.

I've made it through to the other end, but I'm really struggling right now trying to work through issues revolving around anxiety (me) and anger-dissapointment-selfishness- related to my oldest child. Not knowing if the way she behaves is her bipolar or simply an all consuming over-riding selfish ungreatful need to behave in a way that crushes me to the very core. I want to believe she doesn't do it on purpose but I'm having a definite crisis of faith.

Birthday and softball updates to come later, when I don't feel like I'm about to jump out of my skin.

Overly Busy

If anyone actually reads my blog..... I've been super busy and my computer crashed a couple weeks back. Got a new hard drive and now I'm back in business.

School's out, Softball tournament all last weekend shuttling back and forth between 2 different locations. Another tournament this weekend, but both girls are playing at the same location.

Next week is M.'s 13th birthday and I haven't begun to prepare (bad me!) then B. is leaving for SF next weekend. OMG. Somehow I'll survive it. I hope.

League Champs!

M.'s team won the league playoffs for Minors. Very cool! They were 100% undefeated through all games, regular season and post. M. is the blonde standing in the back row.

All Star tournaments start this weekend and my girls will be in 2 different cities at different tournaments. Not sure how I'm going to do that, yet!

School is out Friday. The past several weeks have been madness! Looking forward to summer!

Playoffs, Day 2

C.'s team lost, 4-3. They were eliminated. Big Drama at the game. Going into the 5th, is was 0-0. Then C. had a meltdown and wouldn't pitch. Another girl had to sub, and needless to say it wasn't pretty- the other team scored 3. Despite this our team rallied and tied it up in the 6th. But due to pitching rules- none of our regular girls could re-enter the game so a girl who had never pitched had to go in and try to hold it down. Bless her heart, what a position to be in. In the middle of all this our coach found out we'd been seeded wrong and should have been the home team. A formal protest was lodged. The game stood as is, because the tournament was badly organized and it was discovered some other teams were seeded incorrectly too. It would have meant replays for all teams..... whatever. The girls handled the loss with grace and made us all proud.

M.'s team on the other hand, remain undefeated! They won round 2 of the play offs; 5-1. The championship game is tomorrow at 2pm. M. made some stellar plays at shortstop, and did not have to pitch- which was good because her shoulder still hurts. Luckily pitching rules are more generous at her level of play, allowing more innings per pitcher and they did not need to put her in. Tomorrow will be the big showdown for league champ..... fingers crossed! They are facing a team they did not play during the regular season.

Lastly, more good news. B. told her boss about going to SF for the summer art program, and she is giving her the time off- so she doesn't have to quit her job. That's been weighing heavily on her- and when something weighs heavily on her it runs over onto me........ because she doesn't handle stress at all, and I get the brunt of it, always. BIG sigh of relief! Whew.

Me? Simply tired. Good tired, but bone tired, never the less. Bed is calling me early tonight.

One game down....

1st playoff game won!... and they advance to the next round. Won 11-7. M. pitched a couple of the innings and injured her shoulder. Worried about that, and hope it's not serious. It was another freezing cold night, windy and brrrrrrrr! Is it really June 1st? Sure doesn't feel like summer yet! M.'s team plays again tomorrow afternoon, and C. plays their first game tomorrow morning. Brianna came with me to the game tonight! First time all season. Wish she'd come more, but yay to my girl.

Giants are winning 13-0 against the Phillys. Bye Bye Armando Benitez! Good riddance! What did the Marlins do to deserve you? Dunno.... just glad you are finally outta-here!