Out of Sorts

I've felt very discombobulated this week. That's such an odd word... Cierra has been away and I wasn't expecting to feel so out of sorts with her gone. In addition I have been feeling off, physically. For some reason my eyes are really bothering me and I've had some very strangely painful headaches. Today I had a huge blow up with B. Some of her issues are so difficult to deal with, and leave me so emotionally drained. Times like this I struggle with feeling extremely bereft. No one to share with, cry with, gain strenth and perspective from. It's very isolating and lonely.
I'm feeling really low. I'm glad my youngest sweetie will be home tomorrow. I need some hugs.